In the Cave (part 3)

I was so confused, but I remembered why I was here. I had a purpose to being her that was supposed to be pure. I knew that if I chose to go along with this pretty creature I would totally be off track. So I told her:



No thanks I quit. (I said I quit to sound cool like I used to be cool, but I had to "clean up my act")



Oh come on, its just a little weed! It ain't going to hurt you. Pleeease I don't want to party alone.



No. I better not. Besides I came her to be alone, and think about stuff. This would really put me off track.



Come on don't be such a square!



No. Sorry.



I was proud of myself I was sticking to my guns, but then something happened that made me shudder. She said:



I should have known! You looked like a nerd. Fuckin geek why did I waste my time talking to such a loser! You think you are better than me don't you you self righteous ego maniac!



She continued starting to hurl insults at me. I decided I had enough of her browbeating and got up to leave the cave, but she got in front of me:

WHERE DO YOU THINK YOUR GOING! I'M NOT THROUGH WITH YOU!

LET ME OUT!!!!

NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She changed. She was not the sweet beautiful gal that came in the cave. Her eyes were bulging, and then something happened that freaked me out! HER FACE CONTORTED AND HER VOICE STARTED GET DEEPER!!!!!!!!

I had no other choice with her blocking the entrance of the cave I had no choice, but to go into the cave and maybe wait her out. So I ran. Ran into the darkness, away from the evil that had confronted me. I ran with all my might until I tripped. I was falling now. Face first! into what I don't know. It felt like I was sliding down a hill. I could feel my chest burning. It was pitch black, and I had no idea what was going on, and where I would end up. I was never more frightened, alone, and confused in my life..............

In the Cave (part 1)

So I have been in deep meditation, deep contemplation. I finally have the quiet I was aching for, and it is great! I see the little light coming in from the opening and I also see there is more to this cave. If I wish I can explore deeper, maybe I will do that later. Luckily I did pack a flashlight.

Suddenly I hear something at the entrance of the cave! Fear and anxiety fill me, what is it is it an animal? Oh shit why in the world did I come here! The sound gets louder! It sound like footsteps! Oh shit!!!!

"Motives And Thoughts" Lauryn Hill (Def Poetry)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H1TZO_sOsVo

Self observation is a wonderful tool. Watch yourself constantly without judgement. Watch yourself with the mind of a scientist. Understanding stops once you judge. We are being played like puppets and we don't even see it! So observe with the spirit of I want to understand. See your "Motives and Thoughts"! Don't be afraid, relax you are growing..............

Anthony DeMelo

First of let me say I LOVE YOUTUBE! Anthony De Mello is one of my favorite authors and I have gained a lot from reading his books. I happened to come across of a video of him on YouTube! I love that someone who passed away years ago can come to life with very minimal effort on my part.

Anyway, this talk is great if you have about a half hour it is definitely worth it. One of the key points that comes out of it is it is not the events of our life that make us sad or depressed it is how we take them in. It is our perception of the disturbance that makes the difference. I love that! Of course he says it much more eloquently. This is a gem of a video.

Listen to it with an open ear. At the end there is an older gentleman gets up and asks him an obvious question. Poor man he has been so conditioned by life that he cannot even see Fr. De Mello's message staring him in the face! I pray that none of us we become so conditioned....ENJOY!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1vmTSdxxnTw

Listening Excercise

People have asked me many times what is mediation. I have given many long drawn out answers. I regret them now if they ask me I will just say "Listening".

"Well what do you mean Jijo?"

To me mediation is listening to the outer and inner worlds that we are in all the time.

Listen to the outer world, at the risk of sound crazy I will give you an exercise. Wake up early in the morning, before sun rises and sit by the window. Listen to the outside noises. The crickets, the first bird to sing in the morning, the cars driving by, the silence. There is a peace and a quieting of the mind that occurs.

Listen to the inner world. This is often harder to do, but reaps unending rewards. Just listen what is bothering you. The human mind is amazing! It will go to where it needs to go. Initially it is hard because you will have thousands of thoughts spinning like a CD in your head. Give it time HAVE FAITH, your mind will quiet and go where it needs to go. Think about your issues big and small trust me it will bring you peace. "We can look at a storm in the day or in the night the damage is the same." Vernon Howard said that. I take it a step further. A storm at night can do more damage because you cannot see anything. If you look at your problems straight on then you can deal with them better.

So try it. See if it works for you.......

The Persistant Hunt

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9wI-9RJi0Qo&feature=related

Watch this video. It is truly amazing and beautiful. The Sand People hunt in an ancient way. The way man must have hunted before weapons. This way of hunting is truly magnificent as the hunter and prey are truly one. The hunter is one with the earth and feels the pain and emotions of its prey.

Being a practicing vegetarian I felt terribly sad about the loss of life of the animal, but I understand that this is the nature of things in this world. His tribe must not have access to a supermarket to buy alternative sources of protein so the meat is true nourishment to him and his family.

And boy did he earn it. I tell myself the day I can kill an animal myself with my own hands is the day I will eat meat again. Boy, do I dare say the day I can hunt like this amazingly powerful man is the day I will eat meat again?!?!?!

Listening

Listening is a true art form. I am learning how important and beautiful it is to have the skill of listening.

Let me explain, most of us listen with "filters" on high alert. These filters are our experiences negative and positive. They are our prejudices, our biases, our beliefs, our values. The reason I say it is an art and a skill is that we must listen with those "filters" off. It is not easy to do. You always want to chime in with your own opinion. What is wrong with just shutting up and truly listening to what the other person has to say?

Furthermore, we must listen wholehearted with our mind/body/soul. Watch the person's expressions. FEEL the passion in what they are saying. I mentioned Hara in the previous blog, it is your vital center. Listen with your Hara which is your INNER being. Let the persons words vibrate in you and absorb what they are saying.

It sounds like a simple thing (especially if you disagree with his/her point of view), but try it! It is not as easy as it sounds!

Sojourner Truth

I read Sojourner Truth's Narrative recently, and something has stuck in my head that really moved me.

First of all what an amazing soul. What an amazing woman who was way ahead of her time. God really blesses the world when he puts a soul like that on it.

Anyway, what I want to share is because of the fact that she could not read she would employee adults and children to read to her. What is interesting is at one point she completely stoped employing adults to read to her. You see when she would ask the adult to read the passage a second time the would give their interpretation to her. This hurt her. First of all they probably assumed she was not bright enough to understand. And even more of the reason that I find profound is that ADULTS ARE RIDGE AND CAUGHT UP IN THEIR ON INTERPRETATIONS!

Children on the other hand would read the passage again and again without adding their "2 cents". I think that is what Jesus Christ meant when he said "only those who are like children can enter the Kingdom of God"!

So let us remember that in daily life. Let us not be rigid in our own beliefs be open minded and understand that we do not know it all. Take it like this, everyone we meet knows something we don't, so be a student of everyone! Now I obviously don't mean believe everything you hear, but simply dont' rule it out immediately. Take in new information process it and throw it out if it is useless, but utilize it if it is wroth it...

Ego and the Devil

I heard an interesting thought that I feel has some importance.

In the lore "Satan" or "Lucifer" was one of God's strongest and most precious angels. He was in Heaven and all was harmonious. The beginning of the end for him was at on key point. It was when he found a mirror! Interesting indeed!

I would imagine he saw himself and admired himself and all his beauty and power. Old lore says he was jealous of God and coveted the seat of the most high. His ambition grew and eventually the archangel Michael had to battle him and threw him out of Heaven.

What is interesting to me to take note is what caused "the Devil's" demise. IT WAS EGO! I have said before that I find the biggest stumbling block is egotism. I continue to battle with my huge ego daily...

The danger of "Conclusions"

I have an important warning for the casual and serious "Truth Seeker":

"NEVER COME TO ANY CONCLUSIONS!"

I can't stress this enough. Continue to question everything! I mean absolutely everything. Once you draw a conclusion and accept it you are lost! Conclusion means the stop of inquiry, and once you stop inquiring atrophy starts. I mean both spiritually and physically. Indifference and ignorance are the enemies to the Truth, more the latter than the former, but both are dangerous.

Think about it, if Truth Seekers did not inquire the the world would still be believed to be flat! So please, please be a constructive critic. I emphasize constructive because we do not want to be cynical.

I have learned from my own experiences of failure after failure that is how I know this...

Vernon Howard

I just got Vernon Howard's "The Mystic Path to Cosmic Power" the first 20 pages have been delightfully enlightening. He was the one of the main influence's to Tom Russell of http://www.timeoutfortruth.com/ a great website were the wisdom is vast (www.superwisdom.com).

Anyway here is an example of something Vernon Howard said:

“Confucius was in his thirties when he visited Lao-tse, then a sage in his eighties. We might picture what the wise man said to the young inquirer. For one thing, Lao-tse might have pointed out that human reformers never seek justice for their followers; they wish only to grasp the power of injustice for themselves. He might also have said that a formal education does not mean intelligence, for true intelligence is to live within the spontaneous rhythm of life, without cunning and deceit, and with sanity and naturalness.” — Vernon Howard

I bolded the part that moved me. We get caught up in knowledge sometimes. Living should be a natural and easy thing! Stay loose and enjoy!

The Painting

I was thinking about life and death and it came to me that life the whole history of the universe is like a painting. All the comets, the asteroids, the clouds, solar systems, planets, our lives are brushstrokes. They all have a time on the canvas some more than others, but the strokes goes on as long as the painter needs it to in order to create this masterpiece.

Who is the painter? That is not important. Some call him God, some Allah, some Krishna etc etc. The important thing to remember is keep your part of the painting bright and beautiful...

RELIGION

To me religion, whatever it may be, Christianity, Islam, Buddhism, Hinduism, etc. etc. is just the vehicle to get you to the "forest". A jeep if you will, gives you a boast toward the truth. It maybe a very bumpy road with some detours, but eventually you arrive at the "forest".

You see the jeep is man made and has certain limitations. You can only go so far in a jeep no matter how strong or "advanced" it is. Eventually you gotta get out with you machete (the Truth) and hack and trek your way into the forest.

The forest is a scary place. A lot of people would rather stay in the safety of a jeep, but to really find what you are looking for you must make this trek on your God made feet. The deeper you get the scarier it is, but as you make it through each ticket you start to notice something it is a beautiful forest! Waterfalls, wonderful plantlife, and all kinds of exotic animals. Like all forests/jungles there are dangers, but the immense beauty of it worth the trek.

So whatever, church/temple/mosque you go to remember that it is man made and has certain limitations. The feet that are God made have no limitations. Armed with your machete "the Truth" hack your way into the beautiful forest. You never know what you may find!

Who am I?

Who am I?

Am I the sum of all my childhood/teenage memories? Am I the sum of a series of successes and failures? Am I an Indian? Am I a father? Am I a husband? Am I a fool? Am I wise?

Who am I?

Am I a spirit stuck in a physical body? Am I just a physical body with a high developed frontal lobe? Am I just a creature that evolved from a series of primates?

Who am I?

Am I a descendant of Adam and Eve? Am I God's child? Am I reincarnated from a previous life? Am I confused?

Who am I?

Am I the embryo that developed in my mother's womb? Am I the individual genetic material my father and mother brought together to create me? Am I the nutrients that my parents consumed that made that genetic material? So am I the earth?

Who am I?

Whatever I am know I am made in the image of God! ...or am I?

WHO AM I!?!?!?

Inspired by the writing "Who am I?", "Nan Yar?"

http://allspirit.co.uk/whoami.html

Know Theyself

Socrates said it, "Know thyself". I think that sums up all I have been trying to say in these blogs. We all think we know ourselves, but do we really? I believe God has deposited so much treasures in all of us that all we need do is literally sit down quietly and search for it! I have been reading a couple different religious works and they all talk about a "light" or "a treasure" inside us.

I feel we could live a thousand years and only really start to tap the potential in all of us. So seek out the Kingdom of God, The Treasure inside the Clay Jar, the light that lights the world........

THE ANSWER

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails... 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8

The answer my friends as corny as it sounds is love. Now I am realizing the answers are rather simple, the problem is the implementation. It is so easy to get caught up in our own daily lives. It is important to always take a step back and see am I applying love? It is working across the board when I remember to use Love. From being a father to my professional life. Love is the answer.

God is Love. If you want to know God love everyone and everything with all your heart! If you can achieve that then you will truly know God.

METAPHOR ON OUR DUALITY

I have two sons one is almost 4 years old and the younger one is almost 2. They sometimes fight each other and sometimes they are at peace. I feel this is similar to the spiritual and the mechanical sides of us. Sometimes they fight, sometimes they shine on their own, but when they "play" or "work" together it is a thing of pure beauty.

Mother Teresa

I read an interesting article about Mother Teresa today. It seems she had many doubts about her faith. This came out around the time that she died. I dismissed it because I thought everyone has doubts at some points in their life, but I felt drawn to it for some reason today.

She calls it her "darkness" it was a huge burden for her because she wanted to feel Christ like she did when he originally called her to her ministry, but alas she was not satisfied. Eventually with the counsel of a priest friend she was able to live with the "darkness".

Now some would say why am I writing about this? Or if I am a true Catholic I would push this to the back and not talk about it. I believe this actually will HELP people with doubts. You see Mother Teresa although felt an absence of God STILL KEPT ON GOING WITH HER MISSION! That in itself is a testimony in faith. I believe a lot of people have doubts of the existence of God. I think it is a natural part of spiritual growth to doubt. But we must push forward. Never lose hope or faith in the journey to finding Truth.

I am finding now a days that you don't seek God in the sense of entering an address into a GPS and driving around until you reach your destination. No. You see God is love. Whenever we give love we are seeing God. When we are OPEN to him we see God. When we live in the moment and have gratitude for the small things we are experiencing God.

So ultimately Mother Teresa's doubts actually boosted my faith. If such a loyal servant of God had serious doubts, then there is hope for me/us yet!

Here the article if you are interested:

http://www.time.com/time/world/article/0,8599,1655415,00.html

Self Observation

This is a fascinating technique to examine yourself. What you do is simple, but profound. Just step "outside of yourself" and observe your emotions with a nonjudgmental totally unbiased way. Almost as though you are a scientist doing an experiment and noting information to use in a research paper. It has work wonders for me and the improvement of the "inner Jijo"

For example I have been dealing with someone at work that is a contrarian. You know the type you encounter from time to time. He/she always wants to disagree. You say the sky is blue he/she will say, "well not really you see there are clouds in the sky so technically it is white sometimes and when it is getting ready to rain it can turn grey....." ARRRRAAGGGGHHHH!!!!

Now in the scenario above I would have in the past dismissed it as his/her problem, but with self observation I look at myself. Why am I getting so upset about that person. Look deep. I see, I feel he/she is just trying to be difficult. Look deeper. My point is so right how good he/she disagree with me! Look deeper. I want to be right all the time. Look deeper. It hurts my ego when people disagree with me! AHHAAAA!!!!! Now we are getting somewhere. It is that ego again!

Now the trick is with these discoveries is to not judge because I tend to do that a lot. I think oh my goodness why can't I be more humble. The trick is to be AWARE of it. Awareness is everything. There is a saying "the truth shall set you free" I believe "Awareness shall set you free".

On that note I highly recommend Antony DeMelo's book "Awareness" he explains all this much better than I could possible dream of doing.

Try it out. See if self observation works for you. Just be ready to be humbled!

What to do? What to do?

A woman runs naked through the jungle
Carrying her baby trying not to stumble
They were bathing in the river, but when the soilders came
The fear she felt over powered any and all shame

A 10 year old boy holds his baby brother
Recently orphaned now all they have is each other
Their faces in shock it happened so fast
Unable to explain the horrible bomb blast

A peasant farmer feds himself and family pesticide
The only way to escape starvation, suicide
All the debt, failed crop, attempt after attempt
Loan after loan all the bank money spent

What to do? What to do? I ask God's people
But redemption is not located under a church steeple
Free your mind, God taught us to love
Wise as a serpent, humble as a dove

Babysitting Waves

Watching children is like being by the seashore and watching the waves. Everything is peaceful and then CRASH! A temper tantrum. The water recedes and there is peace then CRASH! Someone falls off the couch! Then there is peace. Such is the rhythm of parenthood and babysitting!

...there are times when a tsunami hits, but always remember the water will eventually recede!

More traffic please

Recently I have noticed that traffic is rather light. I have been rejoicing at this, but then I realized something. The jobless rate is at something like 8% which could explain the light traffic. Less jobs less cars going to work. If that is the reason oh Lord please let there be traffic....

Moment Meditation

It is an ere feeling. I feel at this moment, my life is a meditation. All I am doing even the menial tasks have great meaning. It fades away once I get to my job, but I guess I need to be mechanical there. It comes back at home. There is a quite satisfaction in it. I dont' even feel like watching TV! I wish I could always feel like this.

Again egotism gets in the way. You never realize how much ego you have until you are attempting to be humble....

The Kingdom of God

I want to tell you all about the kingdom of God. Ok for those of you that are still reading it is not a lecture in the sense of a conventional lecture. I am not speaking of a world were humans with wings flap around and play the harp. A place were cherubs fly around in ecstasy. No I speak of something totally different.

You see the Kingdom of God is inside all of us! It is all the blessings God has put in us. All the skills, all the emotions (even all the "bad" ones). We are to use these emotions, and skills seek them out and use them. You see our mind, bodies, and souls are like a home were the master is away and the servants (the skills and emotions) have run a muck. We are to be present in our body by being present in the moment, and find and refine all the "servants" to serve God.

The Bible also says "seek our the Kingdom of God and all will be added unto you" my brothers and sisters this is so true. I see it manifesting in my daily life. I can finally say with all faith and respect praise God!

When reading the Bible or any holy text always look for the deeper meaning. The inner development meaning. I did and it is changing my life!

Banzai tree update

There is something almost therapeutic about caring for the Banzai tree. It started with making sure the breakfast bar was not too cluttered. Of course I do not want a hostile environment for my little friend. It goes deeper. Just to look at it gives me a certain peace. It is hard to explain. I love that plant!

My gardener planted a bunch of vegetables for me without asking! So thank God once again we will have fresh vegetables with no effort from us. (Last year my sister in law did all the planting) All I need to do is water them and pluck the fruit.

It is totally a great feeling to care for a garden or a plant. I highly recommend it. Especially the Juniper Banzai (I hope he does not die on me...I hope I hope I hope...)

Trying to see God

I try to see God in everything I do. It is driving me today. I wish I felt like this everyday.

I hear God when I listen to the morning birds sing.
I see God when I see how much my sons have grown.
I feel God's love when my wife cooks me a special dinner.
He is everywhere, he is in me, he is in us.
Close your eyes so you can see. Feel his warm embrace.
God is love, He is hope, He is truth.

AAAAAMEN!!!!!!!!

Left brain right brain

People. We are doing something wrong as a human race when we raise our children. We feed and nurture the left part of the brain which is logic, intellect, mechanical, the money maker. Meanwhile the right side is malnourished and dying. This is the artistic, the abstract, the spiritual side.

Why do we have all these wars, hate, and destruction? Arrested Development had a great song back in the day called "Mr Wendel" and it had a great line, "...y'all spend all this money on these colleges and most of y'all come out confused" We are loading our children's minds with all this ammunition, but they have no idea where to aim the powerful weapon which IS their minds.

I had my three year old meditating. Albeit a simple and extremely short session I was proud that he kept his eyes closed and followed through. This is a three year old folks. If he can do it y'all can. All you need is faith the size of a mustard seed. It is the smallest seed, but it will grow into the tallest tree!

Please, please, spend at least five minutes a day by yourself in silence. It WILL change your life!

New addition

There is a new addition to the Puthiakunnel clan....

No, my wife is not expecting! It is a tiny Banzai tree or Juniper. It is really cool because it is not just the tree, but there is a little man fishing in a gap filled with water. He just caught a little fish which is actually rather symbolic. There are nice rock formation he is sitting on and a type of bird on top of one of the rocks.

There is a lot of care required for the little guy (the juniper not the little man). I am hoping that my skills as a father will translate well. Anyway I will keep you abreast of my progress.

I was laughing to myself, I am becoming like Mr. Miagi from Karate Kid (minus all the crazy KARATE!!!!).

Please don't die little guy please.

Thoughts of Vegetarianism

"Ethically they arrived at the conclusion that man's supremacy over the lower animals meant not that the former should prey upon the latter, but that the higher should protect the lower, and that there should be mutual aid between the two as between man and man. They had also brought out the truth that man eats not for enjoyment but to live."

-Gandhi --- The story of my experiments with Truth.

The above is from some material that Gandhi was reading about being a vegetarian. Not to condemn you for eating meat (I was one of you and may become one of you someday), but man is that deep. We are on this earth and can think critically. If we are to evolve (which I believe is part of what humankind's purpose is in life) we must try to think on a higher plan.

Let me put it this way, when I think of a advance alien civilization I don't think of them as meat eating, war making, materialistic or selfish. No this is not what I think of in an advance society. So if we are to advance we must abandon the above. Since I cannot change the world and I really only (and I say this loosely) have charge of myself, I chose to try and evolve.

(It's funny I thought I had nothing to say today, but this turned out to be a rather long blog........)

Children and Zen (follow up)

I see now that the "First Response Team" must be love not frustration and anger. The only way to achieve that is through complete and total awareness. Live completely and utterly in the present.

I find the biggest obstacle to achieving my spiritual goals is ego. Egotism is holding me back.

BE HUMBLE OR BE READY TO STUMBLE!

Children and Zen

I have been fascinated by Zen masters. In how they are able to quiet the mind. Find the "middle path" the path with not extremes. I am thousands of miles away from that and wonder if I can ever quiet my mind is such a way.

I realized something yesterday ZEN MASTERS DON'T HAVE CHILDREN! Those lovable little rug rats can try your patients far worse that anything else I have encountered! But alas, what to do I see the positive in the situation. If I can keep my mind quiet while babysitting I can pass any type of test on earth I believe.

I joke, but there is some truth in it!

Ben Hur powerful scene

This scene depicts to me what Jesus Christ is to me. When the Roman soldier is so cruel to Ben Hur and not going to give him water, he asks God in his pit of despair to help him and an unknown man gives him water. The soldier gets angry because he ordered no water for him (Ben Hur), and moves to stop him from quenching Ben's thirst. All Jesus does is stand up and look him in the eye! The soldier cannot say anything. That is what it is like to have the truth on your side. People can talk all they want, but when you speak the truth they will have no counter argument. Even if they do you know what is true as you perceive it so there is no need to get upset.

Check out the scene:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HNtZC_1oZY4&feature=related

Its funny I remember the scene showing Jesus's face, but I think it is better that they don't. You see it is not important what he looks like just what it is to feel his (Jesus's presence).

Being a Vegetarian

"...If we could establish a deep abiding relationship with nature we would never kill an animal for our appetite, we would never harm, vivisect, a monkey, a dog, a guinea pig for our benefit. We would find other ways to heal our wounds, heal our bodies. But the healing of the mind is something totally different. That healing gradually takes place if you are with nature, with the orange on the tree, and the blade of grass that pushes thorough the cement, and the hills covered, hidden by the by the clouds."

from J. Krishnamurti's journal

I am going vegetarian. I don't know for how long, but claiming to be non violent I can' imagine what I am going to eat was once alive and breathing and was killed for me. I know, I know, it is just an animal, but the more I get into being one with everything the more it bugs me. My friend the other day order this huge bloody steak and the fact that it look like a piece of flesh is sticking in my mind....we must get back to nature if we are to survive. Start seeing the earth as your mother....whatever will work to help slow done the process of killing her/it!

Lauryn Hill's "I get out"

I was listening to Lauryn Hill's Mtv's Unplugged "I get out" and it hit me like a ton of bricks! SHE is an AMAZING lyricist. If you look at the spiritual meaning of what she is saying.....

You see there is a counter force that is battling/holding us mentally/spiritually daily. Lucifer, Satan, "The father of lies", "the great deceiver", prince of darkness, negative energy, THE FATHER OF LIES! He is constantly trying to suck your energy like Dracula! This song to me is about GETTING OUT!!!! Breaking free of the mental/spiritual bonds which hold us that keep us from doing what we love, what God, our Father, positive energy, the way, THE TRUTH , the light has put in us to do. You see we have an inner treasure. The Bible says we are like "clay jars that hold a treasure". It also says "the kingdom of heaven is in all of us" and "seek out the kingdom of heaven and all will be added unto you"! Don't you see! If there is something God has been telling you to do. Not in a loud way it is still small voice. Quietly whispering, that is how God communicates not is loud voices like the movies, but a still small steady voice. DO IT! Do what God is telling you to do. Don't ignore him! The "Father of Lies" wants to keep you in slavery, mental and spiritual slavery! God who represents what is good wants you to break free! And only you yourself can do that. "I GET OUT!!!!" Defeat the devil pursue your passion!

Check out this wonderfully powerful song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eF_a1q2FdBs

"Emancipate yourselves from metal slavery none but ourselves can free our minds..."
-Bob Marley Redemption Songs

PEACE BROTHERS AND SISTERS,

Jij